Hello! I’m Sarah,

I believe we all have the capability of living our souls purpose to the fullest expression of who we are.

My early experience

My own experiences led me on a journey to reclaim my own full self expression. They instilled a lifelong curiosity about human behaviour, the complexities we layer on ourselves and how to peel them back to operate from our innate inner wisdom.

I was drawn to movement and dancing. Mum put me in ballet classes age 3 and I spent the next decade learning a discipline, discovering the freedom of my body in motion. I sang, played piano and swam, loving the sea which continues to be my grounding, happy place. I had a wonderful free childhood spent largely outside. Life as it inevitably does for everyone planted obstacles in my pathway to learn from.

At five, dancing solo as a dove during a school performance, I froze, mid-flow sensing something was wrong. I’d missed receiving a crucial cue prior to going on stage due to permanent partial deafness that was diagnosed at that time.

As my teacher wildly shooed me off stage and the whole school looked on, I decided I was ‘stupid, too much and shouldn’t be there.’ I lost key trust and felt I was being shown up. This narrative stuck until I made the connection much later.

It was no coincidence I pursued performing arts in a subconscious quest to recapture my early spontaneity and release the shame I felt from feeling public humiliation.

Visual and performing arts explorations

I was studying visual and performing arts at Brighton University when my Mum had her first episode of Psychotic Depression. To work through my own complicated feelings in relation to it and the upset of seeing someone I loved in distress, I read Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life.

The book had a profound influence on me. Alongside my new thoughts around how to gain emotional freedom, I explored dreams and lucid dreaming to gain more insight. I also spent a lot of time in the university library watching independent art house films, captivated by their capacity to heal through narrative.

I was and still am mesmerised by actors who become a conduit to deliver something bigger than themselves. I also danced… a lot.

This time period steered me towards learning how to gain emotional healing, freedom and leverage to living a life that truly made me happy so I could operate from inner freedom, love and share myself fully with others.

After graduating, eager for new horizons, I moved to London, where I worked in television and honed my performing skills at Central School of Speech and Drama under the amazing tutor ledge of Toby Jones and others. I then gained a full time postgraduate place at The Oxford School of Drama.

Discovering the Flow State & being hard on myself

In our first term studying Shakespeare whilst delivering Gertrude’s monologue from Hamlet, I experienced the elusive state of flow, where time slows and everything aligns. I gained recognition from the principle but had no idea what it was or how to recreate it.

I struggled from then on to feel that anything short of this feeling of ‘flow,’ was authentic. I was hugely independent and quite hard on myself, a trait I’d picked up over time as a form of protection. So the fear of being “too much” resurfaced to sabotage my breakthrough and keep me safe from ridicule whilst playing Phaedra in Sarah Kane’s Phaedra’s Love.

After a shaky start in rehearsals, I broke through with feelings that I’d felt were impermissible to express openly in my teens. In order to do Phaedra’s passion and the play justice it needed them! I was just getting the hang of being bold and witnessed in this new way but my nervous system had other ideas.

As I stepped in front of the audience for the final show, I felt the same freeze I’d experienced age 5. Although I didn’t miss a line I couldn’t allow myself to go to the depths of my passions publicly. I was mortified. I felt I’d let myself and the rest of the cast down.

I worked hard to regain my confidence playing Rebecca Nurse in The Crucible, a part way out of my age range. My performance gained special recognition from the Royal Shakespeare Company.

Reclaiming freedom & sharing with others

Reclaiming freedom of expression through feeling safe in my body has been a multi layered journey. I’ve continued to immerse myself in many embodied practices whilst working professionally. These include yoga, the Meisner technique, movement medicine practice with Internal Family Systems parts work, advanced breath work, somatic regulation, visualisation and wild swimming.

The practices have helped me through grief and loss.

They help guide me back home to self. to that part of me that’s a free as a bird. I am passionate enabling others also to rediscover their own joy, freedom and self expression and witnessing them fly.

In this continual, wonderful, sometimes messy exploration its always the journey that’s important.

Love Sarah x